JAF

And sometimes...I just miss him.

More than I care to let people know.

Are we still writing? No.

Do I still love him? Yes

I have no idea where things will go with this boy. I don't know if he still thinks about me, or if he even still cares about me for that matter. I have no idea if he will want to date me when he gets home, or if I will want to date him....(I will I promise)
But to this boy, I owe a lot. He was, and remains to be my first love.(forgive my cheesiness). He holds a special place in my heart. I miss him dearly, and at this point he almost feels like a dream. A really really good dream. The kind you don't want to wake up from. This boy is special i'm tellin' ya.
Brown skinned and all.

It's like Blah.

I have been a terrible blogger.

Mostly becuase my life is utterly uneventful right now and I have nothing to blog about. I describe my life right now as BLAH.

I miss my car. Not in an "i'm spoiled and want a car" kind of way but in more of a "I have to get to work and I hate having to depend on other people" kind of way. I did, however, get my first paycheck. That's always good news. If any new and exciting events happen i'll be sure to share.



And the Days go Like..

If you're at all curious of what the "cool college kids" do now a days i'm here to inform you...

•  Go to stake singles ward bbqs where you have to find people with: the same color of shirt as you, the same birthday month, someone wearing glasses, etc. etc. and list them all down on a paper before you can get your dinner.... I didn't eat.

• Go to the romantic moonlight lift with a big group of people where everyone seemed to be pairing up, but not us "cool kids" nope me, kristen, steph, and shayli all sat together. I loved it. (no sarcasm there, I really did)

• Work a whole lot taking care of old people...it's a great way to start a conversation. When I meet someone new and they ask me where I work I reply "Health Watch Home Health Care, I go to patient's houses and take care of them". Their response is usually "oh like old people? do you have to change their diapers?! and see old men naked?!" "....Yes I shower them, change their briefs, and I have one patient that is indeed a man." Let me tell you, I can predict the look that is going to be on their face. It's the same disgusted look everytime, and they usually say something like "I couldn't do that". Same face, same line, everytime.

• Take any opportunity I can find to take a power nap. 

• Crash my car real bad... But find out that it's in great shape (besides the damage from the crash) and that they are going to fix it.

• Have some real great bonfires up the canyon with lots of cool zoobies and such who make their own fire pits and keep me laughing all night. (Kristen was on a roll)

• Make Steph pick me up and drive me everywhere because I am helpless without my car

• Take turns with my Mom using her car to go to work. So rough I know.

• Do "homework" in Steph's basement with her and Kai. Mostly Kai just falls asleep and Steph is too A.D.D. to pay attention or get anything done so I try to help them by reading the summary of the movie they were supposed to be watching. Fail. I keep telling Steph to go take the "Am I A.D.D?" test. It would be positive. And all of her problems would be solved.

• On my days off working, I babysit my nephews and since their favorite movie is Annie, we watch it over and over and over again. Enough times that my little 2 year old can recite the whole movie, and sing along to all the songs...and he still isn't sick of it. My aunt claims that I made her watch that movie a million times when I was little. Karma's a beezy.

.....Yep that just about sums it up.

The Joys of Adulthood

Being an adult is not all it's cracked up to be. Things like cars have to work their way into the budget, and things like eyelash extensions have to work their way out:(

It's been a rough 4 days to say the least.

The fact that I wrecked my car has been SO stressful.

It has been in the shop for the past few days while they look at it and decide whether it's fixable or completely totalled. If it's fixable, they will get right to work on fixing it which will still take plenty of time seeing as it's pretty darn beat up. If it's totalled (my guess being that it is), then I have to find out how to get a loan so I can buy myself a car....or something super adult like that. Either way I am stuck for a little bit.

Why is not having a car such a big deal you ask?....

Because I work doing home health care...going to different patients' houses and taking care of them. A job that definitely requires a car.

My sweet brother and sister in law have an old Subaru that they said I could borrow. (seriously they are the best)...The only problem is that it's a stick shift, and for the past two years I have been driving an automatic. I have never taken the time to learn to drive a stick; I have never needed to, nor had anyone to teach me. So, my Sunday has consisted of me trying to learn how to drive. It's hard. Props to all of you who drive sticks. I am not that bad at it, but I am not great. Just when I think I am getting it, I stall the dang car. I ended the night a little aggravated and discouraged. I know it will all work out one way or another, it's just frustrating

I MISS MY CAR.

The car I was so comfortable driving.

However, I am so thankful for my brother and sister-in-law, and the rest of my family for helping me out.

And for Steph because she has been driving me around all weekend.

Things happen for a reason though right? I am sure I have plenty of little lessons to learn from this one.

.....As for Will Smith (my car), I will keep you posted on whether or not he can be saved.

Brutal Night.....

Tonight was brutal.

I got in my first car accident.

Not happy about it at all.

It was my fault.

My car is more likely than not; totalled

I miss it already.

Whip lash sucks.

Silver Linings

Sometimes you just have to remember that things don't have to be perfect in order for you to be happy.

NO ONE'S life is perfect; nor will it ever be.

Things aren't always going to go the way you planned, in fact, most of the time they won't.

You just gotta take whatever God throws at you by the reins and adapt, because there is a light at the end of each tunnel and a silver lining to every cloud.
Whether you are going through the hardest trial of your life, or just simply just trying to survive life in general
... keep your head up, look forward, laugh too much and stay positive always.
...

I love positive people. They make me happy.

Labor Day

Normally I would spend my Labor Day sleeping in, beng suuper lazy, hanging out with some friends, and doing homework.

This year, however, adulthood took charge and I had to work all day.

At first I was dreading it...getting up early, seeing a patient I didn't really want to see, no time for a nap, etc. etc. It turns out my day wasn't so bad afterall:)

My morning started off with an hour extra to sleep in because my first patient was out of town.

I then had a nice Dr. Pepper and Kit Kat fix.

Continuing on I had Del for lunch...always a good thing.

I also realized my punch card at Forever Young Shoes had six punches and my mom's had one...equaling seven (seven punches and you get a free pair of shoes). My mom gave me her punch card and told me to go get myself a free pair of shoes! Best feeling ever. Best mom ever.

Then I went to see another patient, but I was so happy about my new shoes I didn't even care.

So, bottom line is, although I had to work...a new pair of (orphan) boots/shoes can make any girl's day:)

  

Oh How I Adore Them

Just so we're clear....I do have very smart friends. I want everyone know that before this next post begins. They get like 31's on the ACT and stuffff so just know they are smart...in that sort of way.

Alright, here we go.

on occassion (occassion being everyday), my friends make some not so smart comments and I just happen to keep track of some of them. So here is just a preview of what I deal with everyday.

(as we are watching Sam play cube runner)

Aj: "wow..he memorizes me" (he did indeed mean mezmorizes.)

(as me and Haeli are studying for our female reproductive test we come upon the methods of birth control and their accuracy)

Haeli: "wait like why would condoms not work....you mean like there could be a hole in them or something? can you sue for that?!"

(as we are looking at the huge tortise at the zoo)

Emilee: "shouldn't this be in the sea....?"

(as we are looking a the gorilla at the zoo)

Maddie: "Cierra, this gorilla is buff and brown....are you getting turned on?"

Paloma: "if I can't have children I am just buying sugar gliders"

Emilee: "what kind of rides do they have at the zoo? I brought an extra $20 so I could ride them"

Paloma: "why isn't she crying?...oh because she's fat"
Sammy: "what fat people can't cry?...haven't you ever seen the biggest loser?"

Emilee: "three things Kristen will never do: get a blog, wear her hair in a squirrel bun, and say holla."

Paloma: "guys I have something to tell you... I know children are like drowned rats...but I kind of want a baby."

Emilee: "nice passport picture jessie..."
Jessie: "oh no! I look like a tortured cowgirl."

Jessie: "mom what's the wifi password?"
Gina (from upstairs): "beautyqueen"

Brandon: "you're talking to the kid who thought circumcision was a boob job till like a week ago."

(after not texting me back or answering my calls)

Sammy: "Sorry I was building furniture..I know I know i'm suuuper legit"

"Oh look you guys have diversity in your neighborhood. Good for you!"-Paloma

...And anything that Steph Stewart says is usually dumb. Far too many quotes from her mouth, but we love her.