She Said It Best

Read my sister Shayli's blog post Here.  

She pretty much sums up my feelings.



Home is Where The Heart Is

My friends are all home for the break. It's darn near close to the most fabulous thing ever. I absolutely love that I can be with them every day. Everything is just so great when we are all together. We talk about how we are going to be rich and famous one day, and how we will all live in a cul-de-sac/neighborhood all next door to each other.  We have been soaking up every minute. Be it wild, raging parties (more to come on those later), or watching hours and beyond of Gossip Girl in Steph's basement, we just love being together. So here's a shout out to those fine ladies I get to call my best friends... BRING ON TWO MORE WEEKS OF PARTYING HARD!

Quick Update

1. First off, I absolutely love working at the pediatric doctor's office. It is so much fun! Even though I am not getting paid for it, I really like being there. It sure isn't helping my baby hunger though (don't worry i'm not looking to have a kid anytime soon).....

2. My brother and his wife found out they are having another boy! (this one is helping my baby hunger issue) This will be their second son, and his name will be McCoy Marhsall Hansen. I really am so excited. Bring on nephew #4.

3. I unfortunately do not get to work at the OBGYN office on Thursdays:( boo. It's that doctor's surgery day so he won't even be in the office. I am not giving up though..I WILL find an OBGYN office to work at on Thursdays...hopefully:)

4. I got a letter....well actually my family got a letter...from a cute missionary. A missionary I have talked a little bit about here and there. I adore him. He was very close with my family, and I mean my whole family aunts, cousins, nephews, siblings, parents, all of the above. I think it was as refreshing for them as it was for me to hear from him.

Wrinkles, Crying, and Pregnant Bellies

I have made it known that I work as a CNA doing Home Health Care and my patients are old people whom I love dearly, wrinkles and all. I like my job and although it's not what I want to be doing for the rest of my life, for now it will do.

On Tuesday I start my externship for Medical Assisting. I will be working at a Pediatric Doctor's office, and I could not be more thrilled. It will be interesting working with babies and kids who have just started their lives as opposed to my old people who are in the last stages of their lives.

Since this office has Thursdays as their day off and my home health work schedule also gives me Thursdays off, I am going to try and see if the OBGYN office next to the Pediatric office will let me extern for them on Thursdays. If they happen to let me, I will be one happy girl.
I will all together get to work with pregnant mothers, babies, kids up to age 18, and also my old people. Sounds great right? Cross your fingers about he OBGYN office.

                                 

        I get to look forward to this everyday

  And this...

And this....

And hopefully this.

I guess you could say I'm all sorts of excited.

Black Friday

A bit of background info for you:

I made a list of items that within the next year or so I need to purchase. First, a new camera, then netflix, then a laptop, and so on and so forth.

 Camera. Check.

Netflix. Check.

So I have been saving/waiting until the right time for my next big purchase.

     I decided Black Friday was going to be a perfect time to look for a laptop. So that's what I did, and I found one that was going to be at Walmart for $189. Perfect. At about 7:30 I headed down there with my little sister. They gave us a ticket that guaranteed us a laptop even though we wouldn't recieve it until midnight. We had to wait in a designated line until then. There was about 10-15 people in front of us and our line was down a paint aisle (such a boring aisle to be stuck on). To make matters even more boring my phone died 1/3 of the way through the night eliminating facebook, twitter, and games.

     At 10:00 Walmart opened a whole bunch of their stuff and seriously I can't even describe the sounds that I heard once that time came. We were near the back of the store and we couldn't really see the craziness at first, but we heard it. It was a like a wave of screams, yelling, running, psychotic moms, and just pure maddness. Our paint aisle was our own little safety zone and we watched as people ran around grabbing whatever they could and throwing it in their cart. We saw some lady who was crying and holding ice packs on her knees and heard talk of someone being tazed...the things people will do for the littlest things.

Meanwhile my sister was in line at Toys 'R Us and some lady cut in line behind her saying "butting in line is not a crime". My sister responded with "no, but it could get you beat up on a night like this". The lady then looked at her and said "Well I have a gun and I will use it"....ummm psycho much? The cops definitely kicked her out of line completely.

    Finally after waiting for  4 1/2 hours it was time. I got my laptop with no trouble at all, and waited in the long line to check out. Best thing ever. Laptop...check. I love it.

 Amazon.com was also having some sales for Black Friday and I got two seasons of the Vampire Diaries on DVD for a total of $15.98. Too great. I also ventured to Target with my sisters and that was awful. The line wrapped around the whole store. I am so happy my shopping was already done.

I definitely scored big this Black Friday and I am pretty well pleased with myself. 

Bored out of our minds

Our cousin Morgan came to keep us company

Finally! So happy.

36 Hours

Tis the season to be jolly.
and jolly I am.
I love Thanksgiving...the food is amazing but also I absolutely love being with my family. Seriously they are the best/craziest people ever. It's always a blast.
I have lots to be thankful for, but if I start listing everything I won't be able to stop, so just know that there would be pages full.
I said goodbye to one of my dear patients this past week. She passed away peacefully of old age. In my opinion there is no better way to go. She was a sweetheart. Coincedentally, it just so happened that she was my brother-in-law's grandma. I am so grateful that I got to spend some of her last days with her and take care of her. She will be missed.

I will now spend the next 36 hours dreaming of the delicious candied yams I will be partaking of Thursday afternoon.

The Loser Scale

As of late, I am unhappy with the sure boringness my life has come to.
Seriously, its bad.
On a loser scale from 1-10 (ten being the biggest loser) I am border lining a ten.
My routine is far too predictable, and I am tired of it.
I watch way too much Vampire Diaires and pretend my life is as exciting as Elena Gilbert's (the main girl).
I am in dire need of an adventure.
I day dream of going to Africa and helping the little kids and people there...except that takes thousands of dollars that I dont happen to have just lying around. I need to think of some genius fundraisers. If you have any ideas, please share.

Also, listen to this song. It is my favorite at the moment and while Bon Iver sings it amazingly, Birdy's version just seems to tickle my fancy. I don't think I will ever get sick of it. That's how brilliant it is.

An Addict I am

Hello my name is Cierra and I am a Series-aholic.

It's a serious disorder I have.

With books and television shows.

I think an intervention is needed....but if you try to stop me I might have to kill you.

Know that I mean that in the nicest way possible.

The minute I find a book or a t.v. series that I like, I am hooked. I eat, sleep, and breathe it.

Twilight, Harry Potter, The Hunger Games, 24, The O.C., Gossip Girl, and now my latest addiction...The Vampire Diaries. Seriously I am in love. I want a super hot, bad A vampire boyfriend. (so realisitc I know) Lately all I want to do when I am not busy is watch this dang show. I just finished season 1 and I started season 2. It's getting the best of me, but I just can't stop watching it.

Seriously look at those three...what's not to love.

At first I thought it might be dumb, but then I got into it and there is nothing dumb about it.

Sure it's kind of like Twilight, but what's wrong with that?

I'm in love, and I recomend watching it (if you already don't)

...but a fair warning to all, it's addicting.

Birthday Lovin'

Like I mentioned below, there were two special birthdays this week.

First off, my puppy Kaiya turned two.

Look how stinkin' cute she was as a puppy. Sad to say, she's a bit more grown up now, but I love her dearly....It's seriously an obsession. Laugh all you want.

Next, it was my best friend in the entire world's birthday.

Stephanie Anne Stewart.

She really is the best and I am so lucky to have her. We have been best friends since I think 5th grade. We have seriously never been in a fight. We get along so well and even when I am with her everyday, I just don't get sick of her. (is this lesbian enough sounding yet? oh well. I don't even care) We just have fun. No matter what it is, even if it's just sitting and watching tv, it's still fun. She is such a good example, and is always doing what's right. She is my other half and is more like a sister than a friend. No matter what she is always there and I can count on her. I love you Stephy!

For her birthday, we had pazookis at her house with all of our friends. I got her Gossip Girl Season 4 for her birthday because she is obsessed and it is slightly out of control. So I fed the addiction instead of fighting it and got it for her. Once she starts watching it, don't plan on seeing her for a few days.

Tonight we went to Happy Sumo, Red Mango, and to Shayli's house to watch Crazy, Stupid, Love with all of our best friends. It was such a solid night especially because Paloma's boyfriend London and his dad happened to be at Happy Sumo at the same time we were. They came and talked to us for a minute before sitting down for their dinner. When we were about finished eating our waitress came to our table and told us that Scott (London's dad) had paid for our whole check and that we didn't need to worry about it. We were in shock, seriously. We all went and bought him treats at kneaders after that. Nicest thing ever. Marry London Paloma...just do it. I am sold on him and his family.

Guilty As Charged.

I am guilty...of neglecting my blog.

I've been busy, and boring.

Anyway, I got my car back. It was a joyous reunion.



-I keep having this dream that Ryan Sheckler falls in love with me...and then I wake up. (such a mood kill)

-I fantasize about my my celebrity crushes falling in love with me, my wedding, perfect husband, perfect kids, and an adventurous lifestyle, Big whoop.

-Tomorrow is Halloween. I am indeed being a black bunny.

-There are two special birthdays coming up this week. (more on that later)

-It's late and time to sleep, but I vow to be better at blogging.

Two amazing ladies

Today, October, 12 is the birthday of two amazing ladies

Jill Holdaway Hansen and Jessie Jean Du Pre.

First off, my sweet mother. She is the most amazing woman I know. I know that everyone says this about their moms, but seriously I have the best mom in the world. She never ever thinks of herself. She is always doing things for everyone else and taking care of anyone and everyone who walks through her door. She is the most Christ-like person and her heart is full of love for those around her. She has far too much on her plate, and sometimes I wonder how the heck she does it all. From babysitting my three nephews everyday, to running my Dad's business, to working at nights, and still taking care of us all, she really is Wonder Woman! I feel like I could never not need her. I need her for everything, and she has always been there for everything. When I don't feel good, she is the only one who seems to be able to help. I love her so much and hope that one day I can be even a fraction of the woman she is. Thank you Mom for being so gosh darn amazing. I love you, have the best birthday ever!

Next, Jessie Jean Du Pre. She is beautiful in every way possible. She is SO incredibly talented, smart, funny, outgoing, etc. etc. She really does have it all. We met in the 8th grade and she thought I didn't like her HAH! Funny joke Jess. Our group of friends just wouldn't be the same without her and I am so grateful that she moved here. She is always thinking of others and she is like a good therapist when life situations call for it. She moved up to college by herself this year, I seriously am so proud and amazed at how well she has adapted. I don't think I could have done it. Of course it helps that all of the boys are in love with her, so she always has something do to;) She truly is one of a kind, and I would be a better person in everyway if I could be more like Jessie. I love you Mama Jeggie. Have a wonderful birthday, you know we gonna party. 

 Alls I gots to say is you better be as excited as you are in this picture to party for you birthday.

First off over the weekend I went to my first BYU football game...yes yes cue the "are you kidding me's" So I have never been to one..big whoop. It was actually really fun. I got to go with my dad, little sister, and my dad's good friend. Glad I experienced it.

We also found my aunt and cousin there:)

Next, my sister Shayli and her husband came over for dinner tonight. When Kenyon decided to go home, Shayli wasn't quite ready so she stayed and played for awhile. She was having some pain (from her 5 kidney stones) so she took a Percocet. We spent hours online stalking people on facebook, and reading damnyouautocorrect.com. Seriously I don't think I have ever seen her laugh so hard which, in turn, made me laugh really hard too. It was quite fun. Solid Sunday night I would say.

I guess you could say I kind of like her.

Winter? No, thanks. Weekend? I think yes!

Remember how I was so excited about fall yesterday?....and then it snowed today and was way too cold for me to love.  I am not ready to freeze everytime I have to go somewhere. I am not ready to have to start my car 20 minutes before I leave and scrape my windows so I can see out of them. I am not ready to slide all over the road (even though Will Smith is a trooper). I'm just not quite ready.

On a brighter note....I curled up by the fire and drank hot chocolate with whipped cream on top. It was simply delightful. Tomorrow is Friday and I can't even begin to tell you how excited that makes me. Weekends mean: getting to play with my amazing friends. Ahhh I love it. Just knowing I get to be with them makes me almost giddy. Also it means I get done with work at noon and don't have to go back until Monday! Cheers to the freaking weekend right? Can I get a Holla?

I seem to end up at Steph's house every night. The other night we found these blonde wigs....and well we couldn't resist.... I hope this picture makes you smile.

We also made a music video in the middle of the night. It's good reeeeal good. It took us until about 3:30 a.m but we finished it and recorded it. We have way too much fun. I love my bestie, she keeps life interesting. Perhaps that's why I end up at her house every night.

Wednesday's Top 5

     1) The fall is rolling in. It has taken its time coming along but today is certainly an October day. If it weren't for the dark clouds lurking nearby, I would be in love with it.

Today has really put me into the whole October/Halloween spirit. It just smells like Halloween outside ya know? When I got home from work this morning my mom was putting up some halloween decorations. I am thrilled.

     2) I also have a date this weekend to go to the Haunted Circus. Fun right? My sister Shayli will be particularly ecited about this...seeing as I have kind of hit a loser stage in my life and I don't really go out on dates. Most of my time is spent working or catching up on sleep, and this has caused her and her husband to worry about my sanity and well being. She even posted a "now taking applications to date my sister" add on facebook. Yes. This IS what my life has come to. So Shayli...I do have a date on Saturday. Celebrate all you want.

     3) On a much different note, Today I fell off a tricycle and nearly skinned my knee.

 My mom told me I am in denial of growing up. I told her that I don't have to act my age until I look it. She also told me she doesn't want me to move out...does that mean she is happy about my denial? Eat it up mom, eat it up for as long as you can. ( I secretly love when she babys me and wants me to stay home...that's probably my denial talking, but whatever I love it.)

     4)  I am not, I repeat not a morning person at all and I don't think I could ever convince my body otherwise. I do have to get up early for work, and I do it just fine with no (out loud) complaints. Buuuut if I had my way I would sleep in until noon or later everyday. Yes I did just admit to that worthless fantasy I have. Many have (to their dismay) found that I am not pleasant to be around right after you wake me up. But give me a few minutes, some hot chocolate or a Dr. Pepper, and I will be just fine and dandy.

     5) My car is OFFICIALLY, no turning back now, being fixed. Praise. I mean it's only been a month right? (kill me) Although I can't help but be slightly disappointed that I will never find out whether the Kia Soul comes with dancing hamsters or not. Oh well.

HAPPY OCTOBER WEDNESDAY!

In the Mind of Cierra

Currently the thoughts in my head go something like this..

-Why must tomorrow be Monday?

-The weekend is over already?

-Tomorrow is pay-day! Yes!!

-Dear allergies...I HATE you!

-Why do my butt&thighs twitch after I exercise? Probably because i'm out of shape.

-Miss my car. Miss my car. Miss my car.

-I love my bed.

-I may or may not want a snickers bar.

-If I buy a Kia Soul will it come with dancing hamsters?

-I love Conference weekend

-I like temples. Alot

-Could my room be any hotter? Heat exhaustion status up in here.
-I looove my friends
-Why am I not sleeping?
-BYU wouldn't be able to handle me...more like I wouldn't be able to handle it.
-Now how about that snickers bar and a glass of milk? perfect.

Well thats about it folks. I'm utterly exciting I know.

JAF

And sometimes...I just miss him.

More than I care to let people know.

Are we still writing? No.

Do I still love him? Yes

I have no idea where things will go with this boy. I don't know if he still thinks about me, or if he even still cares about me for that matter. I have no idea if he will want to date me when he gets home, or if I will want to date him....(I will I promise)
But to this boy, I owe a lot. He was, and remains to be my first love.(forgive my cheesiness). He holds a special place in my heart. I miss him dearly, and at this point he almost feels like a dream. A really really good dream. The kind you don't want to wake up from. This boy is special i'm tellin' ya.
Brown skinned and all.

It's like Blah.

I have been a terrible blogger.

Mostly becuase my life is utterly uneventful right now and I have nothing to blog about. I describe my life right now as BLAH.

I miss my car. Not in an "i'm spoiled and want a car" kind of way but in more of a "I have to get to work and I hate having to depend on other people" kind of way. I did, however, get my first paycheck. That's always good news. If any new and exciting events happen i'll be sure to share.



And the Days go Like..

If you're at all curious of what the "cool college kids" do now a days i'm here to inform you...

•  Go to stake singles ward bbqs where you have to find people with: the same color of shirt as you, the same birthday month, someone wearing glasses, etc. etc. and list them all down on a paper before you can get your dinner.... I didn't eat.

• Go to the romantic moonlight lift with a big group of people where everyone seemed to be pairing up, but not us "cool kids" nope me, kristen, steph, and shayli all sat together. I loved it. (no sarcasm there, I really did)

• Work a whole lot taking care of old people...it's a great way to start a conversation. When I meet someone new and they ask me where I work I reply "Health Watch Home Health Care, I go to patient's houses and take care of them". Their response is usually "oh like old people? do you have to change their diapers?! and see old men naked?!" "....Yes I shower them, change their briefs, and I have one patient that is indeed a man." Let me tell you, I can predict the look that is going to be on their face. It's the same disgusted look everytime, and they usually say something like "I couldn't do that". Same face, same line, everytime.

• Take any opportunity I can find to take a power nap. 

• Crash my car real bad... But find out that it's in great shape (besides the damage from the crash) and that they are going to fix it.

• Have some real great bonfires up the canyon with lots of cool zoobies and such who make their own fire pits and keep me laughing all night. (Kristen was on a roll)

• Make Steph pick me up and drive me everywhere because I am helpless without my car

• Take turns with my Mom using her car to go to work. So rough I know.

• Do "homework" in Steph's basement with her and Kai. Mostly Kai just falls asleep and Steph is too A.D.D. to pay attention or get anything done so I try to help them by reading the summary of the movie they were supposed to be watching. Fail. I keep telling Steph to go take the "Am I A.D.D?" test. It would be positive. And all of her problems would be solved.

• On my days off working, I babysit my nephews and since their favorite movie is Annie, we watch it over and over and over again. Enough times that my little 2 year old can recite the whole movie, and sing along to all the songs...and he still isn't sick of it. My aunt claims that I made her watch that movie a million times when I was little. Karma's a beezy.

.....Yep that just about sums it up.

The Joys of Adulthood

Being an adult is not all it's cracked up to be. Things like cars have to work their way into the budget, and things like eyelash extensions have to work their way out:(

It's been a rough 4 days to say the least.

The fact that I wrecked my car has been SO stressful.

It has been in the shop for the past few days while they look at it and decide whether it's fixable or completely totalled. If it's fixable, they will get right to work on fixing it which will still take plenty of time seeing as it's pretty darn beat up. If it's totalled (my guess being that it is), then I have to find out how to get a loan so I can buy myself a car....or something super adult like that. Either way I am stuck for a little bit.

Why is not having a car such a big deal you ask?....

Because I work doing home health care...going to different patients' houses and taking care of them. A job that definitely requires a car.

My sweet brother and sister in law have an old Subaru that they said I could borrow. (seriously they are the best)...The only problem is that it's a stick shift, and for the past two years I have been driving an automatic. I have never taken the time to learn to drive a stick; I have never needed to, nor had anyone to teach me. So, my Sunday has consisted of me trying to learn how to drive. It's hard. Props to all of you who drive sticks. I am not that bad at it, but I am not great. Just when I think I am getting it, I stall the dang car. I ended the night a little aggravated and discouraged. I know it will all work out one way or another, it's just frustrating

I MISS MY CAR.

The car I was so comfortable driving.

However, I am so thankful for my brother and sister-in-law, and the rest of my family for helping me out.

And for Steph because she has been driving me around all weekend.

Things happen for a reason though right? I am sure I have plenty of little lessons to learn from this one.

.....As for Will Smith (my car), I will keep you posted on whether or not he can be saved.

Brutal Night.....

Tonight was brutal.

I got in my first car accident.

Not happy about it at all.

It was my fault.

My car is more likely than not; totalled

I miss it already.

Whip lash sucks.

Silver Linings

Sometimes you just have to remember that things don't have to be perfect in order for you to be happy.

NO ONE'S life is perfect; nor will it ever be.

Things aren't always going to go the way you planned, in fact, most of the time they won't.

You just gotta take whatever God throws at you by the reins and adapt, because there is a light at the end of each tunnel and a silver lining to every cloud.
Whether you are going through the hardest trial of your life, or just simply just trying to survive life in general
... keep your head up, look forward, laugh too much and stay positive always.
...

I love positive people. They make me happy.

Labor Day

Normally I would spend my Labor Day sleeping in, beng suuper lazy, hanging out with some friends, and doing homework.

This year, however, adulthood took charge and I had to work all day.

At first I was dreading it...getting up early, seeing a patient I didn't really want to see, no time for a nap, etc. etc. It turns out my day wasn't so bad afterall:)

My morning started off with an hour extra to sleep in because my first patient was out of town.

I then had a nice Dr. Pepper and Kit Kat fix.

Continuing on I had Del for lunch...always a good thing.

I also realized my punch card at Forever Young Shoes had six punches and my mom's had one...equaling seven (seven punches and you get a free pair of shoes). My mom gave me her punch card and told me to go get myself a free pair of shoes! Best feeling ever. Best mom ever.

Then I went to see another patient, but I was so happy about my new shoes I didn't even care.

So, bottom line is, although I had to work...a new pair of (orphan) boots/shoes can make any girl's day:)

  

Oh How I Adore Them

Just so we're clear....I do have very smart friends. I want everyone know that before this next post begins. They get like 31's on the ACT and stuffff so just know they are smart...in that sort of way.

Alright, here we go.

on occassion (occassion being everyday), my friends make some not so smart comments and I just happen to keep track of some of them. So here is just a preview of what I deal with everyday.

(as we are watching Sam play cube runner)

Aj: "wow..he memorizes me" (he did indeed mean mezmorizes.)

(as me and Haeli are studying for our female reproductive test we come upon the methods of birth control and their accuracy)

Haeli: "wait like why would condoms not work....you mean like there could be a hole in them or something? can you sue for that?!"

(as we are looking at the huge tortise at the zoo)

Emilee: "shouldn't this be in the sea....?"

(as we are looking a the gorilla at the zoo)

Maddie: "Cierra, this gorilla is buff and brown....are you getting turned on?"

Paloma: "if I can't have children I am just buying sugar gliders"

Emilee: "what kind of rides do they have at the zoo? I brought an extra $20 so I could ride them"

Paloma: "why isn't she crying?...oh because she's fat"
Sammy: "what fat people can't cry?...haven't you ever seen the biggest loser?"

Emilee: "three things Kristen will never do: get a blog, wear her hair in a squirrel bun, and say holla."

Paloma: "guys I have something to tell you... I know children are like drowned rats...but I kind of want a baby."

Emilee: "nice passport picture jessie..."
Jessie: "oh no! I look like a tortured cowgirl."

Jessie: "mom what's the wifi password?"
Gina (from upstairs): "beautyqueen"

Brandon: "you're talking to the kid who thought circumcision was a boob job till like a week ago."

(after not texting me back or answering my calls)

Sammy: "Sorry I was building furniture..I know I know i'm suuuper legit"

"Oh look you guys have diversity in your neighborhood. Good for you!"-Paloma

...And anything that Steph Stewart says is usually dumb. Far too many quotes from her mouth, but we love her.

Work. Work. Work.

School? Whats that?

Really i'm joking. I definitely know what school is. I went all summer. And because of that I decided to take this semester off. A decision I don't think I will soon regret. My brain just needs a  break. And I want to work and save up some money.

My new job is going wonderfully. I really do enjoy it....yes I do enjoy going to old people's houses and taking care of them. Call me crazy but I get a sense of joy out of  knowing that I am helping someone else do things they aren't able to do anymore.  It most definitely isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life, but for now it's good money and it's flexible so I can work and do my externship for Medical Assisting ( I can't wait to be done with that so I can work in a doctor's office).

Anyways... not having homework right now is one of the best feelings. Although I still have to wake up early I am not complaining:)

Out With the Old and in With the New

Tomorrow is a big day.

Many of my friends start their first day of college,

I got a new job,

Sammy got a new job,

We did not get jobs at the same place,

However, we do both have our firt day tomorrow.

So between work and school, tomorrow is definitely a big day.

Also...driving home in the dark combined with the pouring rain outside and an excellent jam sesh to Taylor Swift....quite possibly could be the most solid thing that's ever happened to me.



The illness

I must be ill.

This weekend I volunteered to watch my nephews while my sister and her husband are out of town. (so unlike me). And tomorrow I gladly agreed to let my other nephew Hunter come over for a few hours while my brother and his wife are out. Don't get me wrong I didn't hesitate or even second guess myself when I said yes. I was happy as can be, and still am. Hence the "I must be ill" statement. So far our time together has gone something like this.....

Me begging Bridger to agree to watch Tarzan... After much persuassion he gave in. It wasn't easy though.

Napping and waking up to Bridger really close to my face staring intently. Awkward.

Eating the randomest of items for lunch. Pasta salad, cheese, ham sandwiches, and quesadillas. Wyatt even said "this is weally good" Bless him. I'm sure it wasn't.

Making sugar cookies, decorating them, and making a big mess. It was even my idea and I knew it was going to be messy.

Sucessful day if i've ever seen one...

Anyway no matter how awful of a babysitter I may seem to be. I love these boys and I am having fun.

Fall Fantasies

Call me crazy...but i'm somewhat excited for fall.

I was shopping at the mall yesterday with my best friend Steph and we came to the conclusion that we are "all shortsed out". Meaning we feel like wearing pants all of the time now instead of shorts, and it got me thinking... I am so exicted for fall clothes! Sweaters, jeans, long sleeved shirts, tights, boots, scarves...fall attire here I come! 

Not only am I excited for fall clothes but for everything that comes with fall...

Colored crunchy leaves

Perfect fall air where the temperature is just right... enough to not have the air conditioner or the heat on, where you can just roll down the windows in the car and its perfect.

Daylight savings (the good one where we gain an hour)

Apple cider

Corn mazes

Haunted houses

HALLOWEEN....(best holiday ever)

Yes, I am going to miss my favorite season which is summer.

Summer did me well this year.

But it will be back.

And while I am excited for fall, you are going to have to give me a few months to get excited for winter....

 Bring on the fall!!!

Realization

Today I realized...

Sometimes many good things can come from what might seemingly be a bad thing.

Sometimes God is mysterious in his ways.

Sometimes understanding why things happen takes time.

Sometimes bad things happen to good people just to make them even better.

Sometimes we have trials to help us learn and grow.

Sometimes being strong is the only option.
Sometimes you have to fake it till you make it.
Sometimes prayers are answered in ways you don't expect.

And all the time if you handle your trials well, the pieces will fall into place.

It Happened.

A fair warning to all. Yes I did steal pictures off Jessies blog. Oh well.

A fully eventful day. That about sums it all up. I spent the morning at Chris's farewell. He is the first one out of the close friends in my age group to have his farewell. Oldies say what? Such a good friend whom I have known since them elementary days. Proud of you Christoff.

I am just comforting Caroline with a gentle arm touch. Thats all.

After Chris's we went to Jessie's...and that's where it became a reality. Sort of.

It was time to say goodbye to her.

So we sat in her living room, put it off forever, took some pictures before the water works started, talked about how we will one day all live in a cul-de-sac with our spouses and children, and then it happened. We said goodbye. We cried a bit. (more than a bit) It was hard. Not because we won't ever see each other and won't stay close, but because what we have known for so long is suddenly different.

So sad

  

Bffs with bracelets to prove it.

We then went home and sulked for a bit. It was to be expected.

Tonight we all went to Kristen's for our last Sunday of festivites. Us gals went early because Sammy made us a video of our pictures/videos together. She is the best. We all sat down and watched it and seriously I was happy and sad all at the same time. Everyone else started showing up and we ate our delicious desserts because Kristen is amazing. We then made everyone watch our cute video (multiple times) haha. Thank you all for being good sports. I am so glad we had our get together tonight. It was kind of our last shabang with our Senior friends who are going to run Timpanogos this year:) I love them all dearly and have grown really close to a lot of them. Our Sunday nights together will truly be missed. Actually the whole summer will be missed. It was a nearly perfect summer, and although I wasn't in the sun as much as I wish I could have been, It was definately a summer to remember.

Thank you to everyone who made it so amazing:)

Sad to say goodbye to friends and to this amazing summer

Ready or Not Here it Comes!

CHANGE

It's coming.

 Far too quickly I might add.

I don't want to say goodbye...or in my words "see ya later".

Alright, I know it's not really goodbye...afterall most of my best friends won't be THAT far away.

But it IS goodbye to everything we have known for the past 6 years.

It's the start of who we are going to be for the rest of our lives.

Some might think i'm crazy for being so sad about it....but I can assure you, if you think such a thing, that you have never had friends like mine.

We have been making the best out of our last week all together in our normal environment.  (there will be more about our amazing week together later)

Soon we will say goodbye, and tears will be shed...I promise.

Sunday.

Tonight was such a great Sunday night!

First of all I cleaned my room and sorted through all the clothes in my closet. So productive I know.

These hangers are from the clothes I got rid of.

Later, Steph came over to hang out with me since I was home alone. Because I am me, and love Del Taco wayy more than I should, I started to want it reeeal bad but it was only 11:30 meaning it was still Sunday. We decided to go on a little bike ride to pass the time. Our bike ride only lasted about 15 minutes so I told her we just needed to drive around in the car until midnight. So that's what we did. We ended up running into some friends outside of Sam's house and talked to them for a bit. FINALLY it was time for some Del:)

As we we going through the drive-thru, I look in my rearview mirror to see tons of cop cars and flames. We hurried and got our food and then parked across the street at the gas station to get a better look. Apparantly a car had started on fire...I don't know how or any details really, but it was cool to watch.

Pretty eventful for O-town right?

We all lined up to watch the fire

Well then I went home and just as I got there it started to pour rain like crazy. Harder than I have seen it rain in a long time.

Sammy texted me around 2:00 and we ended up talking on the phone about our nights and such....she had to give me and update since i'm like a crazy girlfriend and when I can't get ahold of her after the third time calling I start to panic. haha call me crazy. Anyway, as we are having some deep chats on the phone Sammy accidentally locks herself out on her balcony...at 2:30 in the morning. With no answer from either of her parents, I came to the rescue.

I drove to her house, walked up four flights of stairs, and prayed in my heart that the door to get into her house would be unlocked. Sure enough we were SO lucky and I was able to get into her house and let her back in. haha the things I do for this girl ;)

I love my little idiot.

This is how I found her...haha poor thing

Overall I would say I had a pretty eventful Sunday night. :)

The Awkward Diaries Volume I

Sometimes, on days I am especially lucky, I (or someone else) have simply awkward moments. And I either live them, witness them, or even just hear about them.

Here's a few....



When i'm driving on the freeway and I feel a gaze coming from the car next to me and I attempt to make them think I am just far to focused on my driving to notice.

When i'm walking up some stairs behind a boy with particularly large skater shoes, and he takes the stairs three or more at a time. Practicing his splits maybe?

When i'm at the grocery store waiting in the check out line and the guy in front of me starts jamming out on the handle of his shopping cart as if it were drums. Fully equipped with weird facial expressions.

When Steph, Jessie, and I take a trip to Red Mango and before asking steph what she wants, the guy at the counter says to her "killer shirt!!! I love it!!" In a far too enthusiastic voice. Perhaps his form of a pick up line.

When my mom asks the lady at the store if her baby is a girl or a boy. It's a girl mom....hence the dress.

When Jessie see's a middle aged man buying 1,500 pairs of underwear at Victoria's Secret. Yes. you heard me, literally 1,500 pairs. Explain that one to me.

When Steph and I go to the Blue and White Scrimage game at Timp and end up being the last ones there. Defff super seniors. It's embarrassing.

Puppy Love

"The more boys I meet, the more I love my dog"

Nuff said.

Carrie Underwood & this song =Genius.

Hopeless Bachelorette

As if I don't already know I am as single and alone as can be...

 Tonight my sister Shayli called me up to invite me to come along with she and her husband Kenyon, my sister Ashli and her husband Cole, and my brother Jason and his wife Sasha up to the Sundance Lift. Naturally since I would be 7th wheeling it up my first instinct was that I was not going. Shayli's first reaction was "don't you just have like a booty call you could call up"... good sister right? I told her that if a boy isn't in my life for good, then I won't introduce them to my brothers and sisters.

Don't get me wrong, my family is great, but I would just say they are a little bit intimidating especially for someone who is dating me to be around.

I am their baby sister, it is to be expected.

Anyway after much thought I decided to go. Jason and Sasha invited some of their neighbors along too so I ended up being like an 11th wheel.

Awesome right?

Really though it was fun. Shayli and Kenyon were nice enough to let me ride with them on the lift, and they even let me cuddle up next to them....such nice people.

Thanks guys.

Overall it was a great night. I love being with my brothers and sisters. Just sometimes it makes me realize how single I really am. Oh well. Sooner than later right? I like the single life anyway...most of the time.

:)

ohhh happy day

First off I want to wish my little Nephew Hunter J. Hansen a Happy birthday! He is such a doll and is the sweetest little thing. His cute little voice can always make me smile. Love this kid, and hope he had the best 2nd birthday ever!

Next I'd like to share my joyfulness with the blogging world.

I FINSIHED MY MEDICAL ASSISTING COURSE.

Seriously I can't even begin to tell you how good it feels. I have been in that class for about a year now and finishing feels like a big weight lifted off my shoulders.  I feel like I have accomplished alot in the past few years. I got My CNA over a year ago, I got my Phlebotomy certification this summer, and now my MA. This one was the longest and most challenging of the three, but fortunately I pulled through and I am quite proud of myself for it. I passed both of my finals the first time, and that felt pretty dang good. It is now time for me to find an externship. I really am SO excited for this. After I have been an extern for 180 hours I can find a job as a Medical Assistant. I can't wait!!:)

Ready for the next step!

You're lookin' at one happy girl!:)

Oldie Pants

So many mixed emotions going on inside of me right now about growing up.

First off high school and all of its drama...well it really will be missed.

 Not the drama part obviously, but there really is nothing like high school.

Believe me I was so ready to be done with highschool, and I am positive I would not have lasted another year, but I was comfortable with highschool.

I don't like change.

I like to keep things the way I am comfortable with them.

I am comfortable with knowing I can and will see my besties everyday.

I am comfortable knowing that my parents will pay for everything and I don't have to fend for myself.

I am comfortable with the pointless classes at Timpanogos High.

Very soon most of what I do will be outside of my comfort zone.

Scary.

And that is a glimpse of what is running through my head on the daily.

Bridger Cole Wilson

One of my favorite little boys just turned five!

I seriously can't believe that five years ago I was being rushed home from girls camp because this little guy was being born.

Seriously how did he get so big?

He is at my house almost everyday while his parents work, and I feel like he is more of a little brother than a nephew.

 Now he's all grown up and naughty as can be.

 We fight as though we are the same age....yes I do fight with a five year old, but I can't help it.

He is way too smart for his own good and although we don't always get along he is the sweetest little guy.

 He is always willing to come cuddle up with me and just hang out with his favorite aunt

....okay so when he names off his favorites I am always in last place (we all know its just a cover up).

Bottom line is I love this little guy with all my heart and wouldn't trade him for the world.

I love you Bridger Cole Wilson and hope you had the best day a five year old could possibly have!





Brunette or Blonde?

   Many of you know my best friend in the whole world Stephanie Anne Stewart,

and for those of you who don't... let me introduce you.

She keeps me laughing on the daily, and sometimes I have to question whether or not she is a true blonde in disguise. Don't get me wrong she really is smart....at least in the book smart sort of way.

A little preview of what I put up with...

The other night we were watching a movie at Jessie's house and she turns over to me and tells me that she knows for certain that her mother is dead because when she stopped home she wasn't in her bed (unintentional rhyme)....she told me that it was intuition for sure and that she needed to get home right away.

Now, if it were anyone else I may be a little bit worried but this is Steph and knowing her for as long and as well as I do, I know that her intuition is never right. No offense. She cooked up this whole senario in her head and wouldn't quit worrying about it. So I gave in and took her home only to find all was fine at home (rolling of the eyes).

 Bless her heart.

Here are just a few of her best quotes.

"I never wanted to watch The Karate Kid 'cause I just thought karate was just a weird way of spelling carrot...who would want to watch a movie about a carrot kid?"

"I thought the L in staples was a C so I thought the store was called stapces"

"you and me ci..we're like a married couple cause you always give me the last bite!"

"his love is her drug"

"ummm my pants just ripped I think i'm gonna cry"

so like whats everyone deepest fear? Steph you go first..."I have a fear of going backwards"

"does this stupid thing called chat not work, or does everyone in this town just hate me?"

Yep. I think I will keep her.

 Look how talented she is

A Zootastic Time

If you are wondering what we do on an average Saturday...

let me fill you in.

This past Saturday we made a trip to the zoo, but when we do something we do it right and you can bet this wasn't just your ordinary trip to the zoo.

First off we made it a requirement that everyone dress in their best safari outfit.

Second Sammy made us some MuZOOic cds full of songs that got us super pumped to see the animals...like eye of the tiger, the jungle book, hakuna matata, welcome to the jungle, and plenty more fabulous jams.

We then spent a wonderful afternoon admiring all of the animals. Seriously, I loved every minute.

We may have gotten some strange stares on this little adventure, but going all out was more than worth it.